hey ya every 1 ,, hope you all fine ,,
first of all i'm so sorry for dissapear but after my exams i was out side the country and i've just back soon , i know i have lot of mail that i should replay thx for you all and i'll soonnnn , but plz all forgive me coz these days i'm out of my mind , lot of trubels in my life some with my friends in jop and other with my self and thats the more harmful thing for me ,

i used to ask my self 1000nd of time why this life is so strange like that ? why ppl or let me say some ppl not all of them didn't care of the other as much as they did for them self ? some friends , you give them your love , care , and after while you find that they didn't appreaciate that or even respect it !!

a part from fact that i've touch these days that some time you give some ppl all what you have,, things that you didn't do it with any normal guy but soon you find that you've made a mistake , on the other hand other ppl or let me say friends " the normal ppl" which you feel nothing to them , imean it's not important if they hear or not,, whats up in thier life,, etc , at the end you find them the most honest, faith ppl and only god knows how much they love you and care about ya ,,,,,,

it's all about why i gave some ppl what they didn't deserve and didn't with the other which actualy desevre ??!!!

i've a feeling in my mind about it's to hard to loese a friend but the harder is to need your friend but he/she is not their ....

i can hear some of you saying " what da f* wrong with ya why u still care about thoese f* ppl ? through them a way "

thats is my problem i can't be a m* F* like them but what i'm trying to learn is it doesent matter how much i care , some ppl just don care ..

sorry i'm confused right now but maybe later i can write more coz really thier is a lot i wna tell ya all about ,,

gtg c ya all