One day I was sitting on da beach in alex and it was one the most charming worm winter days, the calmness all over the space , just the rocks , wind and da sea …..

After a long walk trying to escape from these memo's but no way,, I lay daown by da rocks looking to da sky taking a deep breath , hearing the natural playing it's magic symphony , da wind n da waves going in da same rhythm .

With all this beauty and since I've nothing else that every bit in me just gave up n I've closed my eyes and suddenly I feel my tears fallen down , I can't just believe that u let me go that way , and ur last words was my ticket to the world of da darkness to spend my whole life there,, hunted by the monster of fear and running away from ghosts of da past , without hope without life n without soul ,, no way out ,, even my resolve become so weak , to move me back , I've nothing left coz I fall down at da moment u spoke these words , the word which destroyed ur love castle in ma hart , n now I've nothing left except remains…

I was drawn in my grieve until I've realized a light beam expanding and fading the dark away and I feel that I'm flying far away in da sky feeling the gentle touch of the cloud and da stars lighting up the sspace all around it was so beautiful view I've ever seen ,
Suddenly and far way some one walking on his way to me , at da first da view wasn't clear , but several step closer and it was a surprise, she's is a very beautiful woman the most I've every seen,, dark hair just as the night darkness with a magic eyes just like the wizard ..

I was shocked at the beginning and I tried to understand what's going on,, I can't believe my eyes it was a second n she become closer n closer , she was looking at me with a cheerful smile like that she know me for long time , I couldn't hide that was my feeling too I don know why ? and she touched ma hart,, n her hand was soft and very cold but ma hart feel worm , in this moment million of question surrounded my mind and I was in my way to talk but she move her finger to my lips and whisper hshhh , I've just keep looking to her charming eyes , and I started to feel some thing inside me walking away through every bit in ma body picking up the sadness and it was the first time in ma life to feel my soul , light , shine .

She smiled again and said that's how u should be , I said : then why I'm lost ? why did I loese ma love? is it ma hart mistake ? she said: u don never ever blame ur hart to fall in love you should blame your mind coz he believe in his lies , you didn't listen to your mind , from the beginning and u feel that she's not the one but you become stubborn and at the end you are the only loser and im not blaming ya for what u did , u did it coz u loved her , but she didn't deserve ,,,,

I said : u mean that no one deserve this much of love ? she said: I didn't say that , there is always some one , if you can just follow ur hart and follow ur soul whisper then it will lead ya to her ,

I said : I wish I could find the person who really loves me … then she looked at me for a while then she hug me compassionately and ask me to close my eyes , and i've seen two young kids " boy n a girl" n they was so beautiful , innocent , holding each other hands and playing with each other , running all over the flower gardens trying to catch a butterfly , it was so awesome , I asked who are they ? she said that's your soul and this young beautiful girl is the soul of ur girl that u r looking for,, the one who will really love ya , in every night ur souls fly away and make u both dream , that’s the secret beyond that some time u feel the love , and some time you feel that u r living a romantic moments at every time u read a love poems,, despite that u r not in a relation with any ,one ….
Then she started to walk away and she said: Follow ur soul whisper and it will lead ya to her , she may be so close and u can't just realize that , and that’s was her last word before she vanish , then I open ma eyes and it was the sun set ,

I'm just wonder who is she , and I've hear some whisper say's she's is da life .

"That’s one of the moment's that I can't forget and I can't tell ya hw I felt when finally I wrote about it ."

hi every one , it's all most a year since last blog , oh god i can't believe this .
i just wonder where i've been and whats going on this year ? i don know !! i'm not kiddin !!
i've just stoped by some memo's in my mind and i've remember some one , a person that i've respected n liked so much in despite that we knew each other 4 a while but no longer just time 2 time, but she left me some thing special in my mind and she was the one who lead me to write in this blog and always be my inspirer in my writes ,..

it's 2008 and it's always batter to move with time and watch the sun raise|set . finaly i feel that i'm a new person and with every day i think it's new born ,
thx nana ,always luv ya

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hey ya every 1 ,, hope you all fine ,,
first of all i'm so sorry for dissapear but after my exams i was out side the country and i've just back soon , i know i have lot of mail that i should replay thx for you all and i'll soonnnn , but plz all forgive me coz these days i'm out of my mind , lot of trubels in my life some with my friends in jop and other with my self and thats the more harmful thing for me ,

i used to ask my self 1000nd of time why this life is so strange like that ? why ppl or let me say some ppl not all of them didn't care of the other as much as they did for them self ? some friends , you give them your love , care , and after while you find that they didn't appreaciate that or even respect it !!

a part from fact that i've touch these days that some time you give some ppl all what you have,, things that you didn't do it with any normal guy but soon you find that you've made a mistake , on the other hand other ppl or let me say friends " the normal ppl" which you feel nothing to them , imean it's not important if they hear or not,, whats up in thier life,, etc , at the end you find them the most honest, faith ppl and only god knows how much they love you and care about ya ,,,,,,

it's all about why i gave some ppl what they didn't deserve and didn't with the other which actualy desevre ??!!!

i've a feeling in my mind about it's to hard to loese a friend but the harder is to need your friend but he/she is not their ....

i can hear some of you saying " what da f* wrong with ya why u still care about thoese f* ppl ? through them a way "

thats is my problem i can't be a m* F* like them but what i'm trying to learn is it doesent matter how much i care , some ppl just don care ..

sorry i'm confused right now but maybe later i can write more coz really thier is a lot i wna tell ya all about ,,

gtg c ya all